There always seems to be a wave of death right after the holidays. Of all the family that I've lost, none have died in the warmer months - always some time between January and March.

Just in the last week:

A co-worker lost her brother in law in a skiing accident.

My friend's intern died

Another co-worker lost her cousin

Robert Anton Wilson passed away

Everybody hangs on for one more Christmas. When I go, I don't know what I'll hang on for "one last" of... but it won't be Christmas.

Edit: Just as I posted this, I got an email that Art Buchwald is dead.

it's amazing how much just stating what you hate can lessen it's power.

Well, and having a really fun date with an intelligent, hilarious, kind and beautiful young lady doesn't hurt either. :-)

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the little guy is: hopeful

Ashley IM'd me yesterday and said, "I hate walking by you. I hate that look on your face".

"What look?" I asked.

"No look. Blank face."

I considered that there wasn't a "look" for how I felt when I walked by her and if there was, she wouldn't like that look any better.

As I was on the C train home that night, I remembered this Emily Dickinson poem I read in 10th grade:

After great pain a formal feeling comes--
The nerves sit ceremonious like tombs;
The stiff Heart questions--was it He that bore?
And yesterday--or centuries before?

The feet, mechanical, go round
A wooden way
Of ground, or air, or ought,
Regardless grown,
A quartz contentment, like a stone.

This is the hour of lead
Remembered if outlived,
As freezing persons recollect the snow--
First chill, then stupor, then the letting go.

I haven't quite achieved quartz contentment yet, but I'm looking forward to it.

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...well, I don't know if I actually invented it, but I know I've never played it before. Here's how it goes: I post a short paragraph (story), that serves as the middle of a very short story. Your job is to write 2 short paragraphs, 1 before the paragraph, and one after... telling a completely, but very short story. Then, it would be really cool if someone else would post 2 more, again at the beginning and end, which CONTAINS each of the very very short stories, but creating another, slightly longer third story. and so on. So by the end you have all these little symetrical stories w/in stories, like those little russian doll thingamabobs. One thing: you CAN change the style/grammer/etc. of the other stories to keep with your style, but WHAT HAPPENS in each of those stays the same.

So, all you writers with a few minutes on ya (and maybe a little weed in ya), here's the first paragraph.

PS: I'm fully expecting no one to do this, so don't feel obligated

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The first time I met him, he was guzzling budweiser from a tall-boy like the college punk, I would find out later, he actually was. I pretended to not watch him, and did my best to rise above my amusement. He nailed my gaze from between the off-clear plastic rings that waved like a flag while he drank. Even though his mouth was covered, I could see the edges of smirk rising from one side of the bud can. He wiped his mouth on his sleeve, and smiled. "Hey!" he shouted though the crowd to nobody but me, "the dolphins can't get stuck when there's still a can in the hole, can they?!?" Thinking this statement was semi-retarded, and definitely beneath me, I looked away and walked off to the tail end of the 20-something-deep line for the ladies' room.

One of my best buds, Rob Paravonian, has the #1 comedy video on YouTube... Go Rob!

Tags: music, paravonian, video
Current Location: Fort Greene

I can't find my best friend
And my life's just not the same
I knew I'd feel close to her
Before I ever knew her name
I feel lost
A little lost
And the world keeps spinning 'round
But I can't find my best friend
And the world spins upside down

Oh dark night
I want you to see
That I've actually been doing alright
I've been doing alright
It's just that warm feels cold to me
I can't find my best friend
To help me in this hour
Now I've learned how to love
But it's demanding all my power
It's hard for me to know the end
I suppose I'll find my way
But I can't find my best friend

the little guy is: sad

http://nickzedd.livejournal.com/202596.html?nc=2

Be sure to scroll down and read Vox's comments. A free lie detector test? cool! I'm in!! Had he ever actually offered such a thing I would have jumped at the chance. Not out of a need to prove anything, but b/c I've never taken one and think it might be sort of cool - especially if Vox is paying! awesome!!

I'm wavering on whether to keep this post private or not... it's sort of like encouraging the class to laugh at the retarded kids. Ah, fuck it. We all need a good chuckle now and then, even if it's at the expense of those less fortunate.

hell, at least zedd thinks enough of me that he thinks I could be working for the CIA. I'm like a Black Ops Bob who can just let everyone else make up stories about my intrigues. Wonder what I'll do next?? hmmmm....

You scored as Disappear. Your death will be by disappearing, probably a camping trip gone wrong or an evening hike you never returned from. Always remeber that one guy who was hiking alone and got in a rock slide. He could have died, but he cut his own hand off to save himself. Don't end up like him (or worse, dead).

How Will You Die??
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moments before leaving for the gym, i got a pee stain on my sweatpants. just a little dot, but now i have to sit and wait for it to dry. godammit. guess i'll have a cigarette.

this is what live-journals are for (not blogs). otherwise, how would you ever have known

about the pee stain on my sweatpants.

Tags: pee, stains
the little guy is: wet
in my ears: PE - louder than a bomb

Day Against DRM -- TODAY!





Today is October 3, the International Day Against DRM -- the first global day where people rise up and say no to anti-copying technology that treats you like a crook. Remember, DRM doesn't stop "piracy" -- the only people who get DRM infections are people who don't pirate their media. You get DRM by buying your movies, music, games and books through authorized channels -- the stuff you download from P2P or buy off of a blanket at a flea-market has already had the DRM cracked off of it. They say that DRM "keeps honest people honest" -- but all it does is keep honest people in chains.

Here's some things to do and read to celebrate No DRM Day:

The Digital TV Liberation Front's Wendy Seltzer is giving a free talk tonight at Los Angeles's USC Annenberg School (main campus) at 7PM.

DefectiveByDesign's list of anti-DRM actions contains over 200 suggestions for activities you can participate in today and all year round to fight DRM.

DRMFree.org is a search-engine for DRM-free music for sale on the Internet, a single index of dozens of sites that sell or give away music without crippleware.

DRM.info is a site aimed at explaining DRM to the uninitiated -- what DRM is, why you should care, and what you can do about it. Tell your friends!

Who Killed TiVoToGo? is a murder-mystery from the Electronic Frontier Foundation that explains how even restricted services that let you get more out of your property are being axed by regulators and the entertainment industry (here's how to fight back).

Kembrew McLeod's guest-edited issue of the journal Cultural Studies contains uproarious scholarly works on the copyfight.

Anti-DRM banners for your site from Militant Geek.